back in Mombasa to visit my mother
My Mum really is not well, mostly from long-term conditions
(including Multiple Sclerosis, Ankylosing Spondylitis and Rheumatoid Arthritis),
her 40+ years of anorexia, a gastric ulcer – and more recently with dementia. She does not enjoy her life, but as we don’t
have an ‘off switch’ she continues to wake up each morning to suffer yet
another day of physical pain and mental distress. She loves my visits but does not want me to
stay at her place – far too stressful (I might put things back in the wrong
place…), and my presence will lead to her using more electricity and gas which will
increase her expenses. So I booked
myself into my usual hostel, with the understanding that I would take day trips
out to my Mum’s house.
Visiting her is stressful.
She doesn't stop talking but often starts sentences then can’t remember what she was trying to say. She has frequent panics about where she put
her purse/keys/some important piece of paper.
She struggles to do things but if I try to help I inevitably put
something in the wrong place or at the wrong angle, or just confuse her by
being there, which causes her to lose her temper and shout – and then feel awful
about it and explain to me that she has dementia… I shouldn’t complain, as obviously all of
this is far worse for her than for me, but still, I do find it stressful.
At the same time, it is nice to be able to help. She no longer feels able to go out, but is
wedded to a very specific diet, so I did a big shop for her (specific brands and
sizes of packets of noodles, milk powder, digestive biscuits, barbecue sauce, coffee
sachets, insect repellent, anti-histamines, etc), as well as a trip into
central Mombasa to collect mail from her post box. & I bought her a new padlock, as once
again she has found evidence of neighbours entering her house (when she was out
or asleep) and stealing money, food, and other things – she was particularly
upset that they stole the nail scissors that she apparently used for me when I
was a baby. Then on one day’s visit, her
phone buzzed (and any unexpected noise sends her bouncing nearly out of her
chair in shock) with a message from one of the Kenyan phone services saying she
had to urgently register her account at one of their offices, with identification
documents, or her account would be ended; cue utter panic but then the
realisation that she could take advantage of my being there to make the trek (walk,
tuk tuk and matatu) to their nearest office, with my help, to get that done –
which we did. & a week later we had
to make almost the same trek again so that she could get a doctor to witness
her ‘proof of life’ form for the UK government, without which she would not
continue to receive her pension (tomorrow I make the long trek into the centre
of Mombasa to get this sent, registered mail).
The outings were successfully completed, although the one to the doctor was so difficult
and stressful for her that later in the evening, after I'd left, she apparently
found herself lying on the floor in her front room in a pool of blood, with a
big wound on her head, presumably from fainting or somehow tripping over, she
can’t remember.
During my trip I responded to a post I saw online looking
for a volunteer for a nearby orphanage – not exactly something I’ve always
wanted to do, but (1) it meant two weeks with all my accommodation and food
costs covered, (2) it made my Mum VERY happy as the reason she originally came
to Kenya back in 2006 was to volunteer at an orphanage, and (3) it would be a
new – and very different – experience for me.
I was accepted and, somehow, I made it through the two weeks, although I
HATED my time there. It was not helped
by being in an awkward situation where other volunteers there had all had to pay
a fairly significant sum to the Spanish organisation which largely funds the
place. Their official representative knew I had not come through them and so
for the first few days she would not let me sit and eat with ‘her’ volunteers, she
ordered me twice to change beds so that ‘her’ volunteers could be in the same
room, and when at any moment she saw me not doing ‘volunteer tasks’ she had a
go at me (even though we were strictly only required to work 5 hours a day) –
if she had known that I had somehow got my place without paying anything at all
for the ‘privilege’ of volunteering I think she would have just ordered me to
leave!
Thankfully for the second week
I was sharing a room with a young Italian volunteer, who found the endless
noise and activity of the children, and the lack of clear direction as to what
we were supposed to do, as difficult as I did, so he and I escaped occasionally
to vent, which somehow made it all more bearable.
Some of the children did seem to enjoy my being there, from those
who just wanted to be hugged to some of the older ones who would sit and chat
with me, so I’d like to think that I did contribute something, as well
as saving money (which then, of course, all went on shopping and other costs
for my Mum…).
Forgive me, as I know I’m not supposed to think like this, but
I have to admit that I will be happy when I board my flight out of here on 31
August.
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